Do you want to know a secret?

I was actually getting a bit excited and ready to go back to France. I know, right? But now it looks like I won't make my flight tomorrow and Sunday and Monday are overbooked too. Bad news for me. I hope I have a job to come back to after I tell Florence. Wish me luck!

What was supposed to be a 2 week visit has turned into a 5+ week stay. Yeah. I know this sounds a little excessive, but looking back on the past month I've seen that it was exactly what I needed. I had a lot to deal with over the past few weeks between a car accident, losing some important people in my life and making some big decisions but now I feel better about everything and can move on. Finally.

Last night I said goodbye to my Aunt Becky and cousin Meg and a family that I absolutely adore and are in some ways a bit of a second family. As happy and grateful as it made me to realize that I have people like them in my life, it has made it that much harder to leave. I hate thinking that I wont see my friends and family for the next 3-5 months. I know that doesn't sound like a long time, but to me it is. I've learned how important people are and even more importantly that you must express those feelings otherwise people may not know. I love my family more than I could ever say. I love my best friends with all of my heart. I love the Gibsons regardless of how things have changed. Hannah and Hunter are my sisters and I see Ann as second mother. I miss them terribly! I love Dev, Jenna and Jacqueline for being there and being supportive of all that has happened, even though I've been kind of crazy. I love the emails and messages I get from my Grandma B and Aunt Kathy. They are such wonderful women. I love my cousins so much. I'm quite close with Katie and Meg {mainly because they are in Provo} and I don't know what I would do without them. They mean the world to me. I love my aunt Becky. She is just Becky. Whenever I'm sad I head to Becky's because she makes me feel like everything will be okay. Plus she always has something delicious just coming out of the oven. I love Jenna. She has been there for me for so many, many things. I look up to her more than most people I know. She's a big reason why I went to France. She is has such a large heart and I know she would do anything for me. I love Jacqueline. She is my soul sister. I don't know another person who can make me laugh like she does. She is crazy {the good kind}, funny and always up for anything. I love my sister and I admire how much she loves and wish I had a heart as big as she does. She is the least judgmental person and is always there when I need her. Plus she is always up for a guitar sing along based on the music stylings of Dashboard Confessional. I love my brother. He just knows things. He is so smart and funny and kind. Everyday he says something that makes me smile. I love my dad and all of the pep talks he gives me. Pretty sure he's talked me down about 20 different times. He always knows what to say. And how to make you laugh. My mom. How I love her. She is the most lovely and enchanting woman I know. She is my best friend and is always there for me. These are only a few of the people in my life that mean a great deal. I would go on and on but this post would be entirely too long {I'm sure I've lost a few readers by this point}. I have such love for the people in my life and I hope they know this. I will miss them too much while I'm away.

-M